Once I decided to take responsibility for my life, I had to look in the mirror. It wasn’t a physical mirror but the mirror to my soul. I thought I was an open book but underneath my mask of good works I was hiding a fearful kid. This was someone I tucked away years ago. Like I said before, I was saved when I was almost 13 years old and I made a decision that day that my life would be based on the Word of God. This would be my foundation. I’m not saying that was a bad thing but what I’m saying is instead of laying the fear down and really trusting I started performing for assurance and acceptance. In my mind, to be saved meant to work hard to do the right thing. I attempted to do the right thing and when I would fall I would consider myself the victim. As I was thinking deeper, layers of shame and guilt covered me. What in the world? Why isn’t my life working? I felt like I was going through a revolving door and didn’t know how to get off. This was a major turning point in my life. I wanted the truth that would set me free and to love in the purest way but I had no idea how. After years of training myself to be what everyone wanted me to be, I had many masks to lay down. Mask that I thought were protecting me were actually stopping me from experiencing “abundant life”. Have you ever felt this way? I would love to hear feedback from you guys. What mask are you wearing?